My head is going to essplode!
It's no secret that I am not an organized list-making soul. I have small piles of papers with jotted notes sitting on my desk to remind my fragmented brain of important tasks. But dumping the information out of my brain onto small sheets of notepaper doesn't seem to be easing the mental overload.
My poor belabored brain keeps shouting out random unrelated thoughts. "Don't forget to buy breadcrumbs at Drug Mart" or "Email so-and-so about her syllabus" or "Did I ever look up the instructions for making cake pops?" or "I wonder who's on the leaderboard at the PGA Championship? I should google it" or "I really need to blog about Shaun Groves' new cd" or "I wonder what kind of butterfly that yellow woolly caterpillar we saw on our neighbor's porch will become after metamorphosis? I should look that up online with Chloe"
These non-essential thoughts keep bouncing around my cranium at 70 mph. And by the time I settle on one thought and decide to take action, I'm completely distracted from my original task. Fractured, fragmented and disorderly is my thinking of late.
Has my head exploded yet?
I'm praying I make it through the upcoming birthday festivities with my head still firmly intact. And hopefully I won't be such a frazzled flake that I can complete sentences when speaking to other adults.
How do you keep your mind organized and whole during these busy days? My brain needs HELP. Desperately.
I'm realizing too that I can't just keep blaming *mommy brain* every time I act flaky or forgetful. While I do think becoming a mom helped me get to this frazzly point I am positive I can reclaim my pre-mom brain cells.
I know what I need to do. I need to re-train my brain to focus. By forcing myself to do SINGLE tasks, reading chapters of books instead of paragraphs in one sitting, and only allowing myself 1-3 tabs open on my computer browser instead of 7-8. But I can't start right now. Right now I need to go google yellow woolly caterpillars.
1 comment:
Bless your heart! I really wish I had read this post sooner so that I could be praying for you specifically. I totally understand what you are talking about. I have so much of that fractured thinking going on most days & I know that the Lord isn't pleased by it because there is no being still & there is very little recognition of the fact that He is God. I don't know the answer & I'm sure that my head WILL explode if we ever have children because look at where I am now! :-) Hopefully you are feeling much more in focus today as you begin the new week. I'm praying for you today *hugs*
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